Many enjoy doing for others during the Christmas
season. People, I hear, find certain
amount of satisfaction, even joy in this sort of altruism. Not me.
Oh, my intentions are always honorable.
But I inevitably end up making as ass out of myself and force those I’m
trying to help to comfort me in some way.
Most years my church ladies group adopts a family for
Christmas. The family is usually
referred by a local school counselor and is in desperate need of basics. It’s a perfect group for an adoptive
family. There are twenty plus ladies in
all ages and economic levels. So there
are people who would be delighted to buy a gaming system if that’s the child’s
dream. Those who need to do something
like clothes or a grocery gift card can do that.
The year I coordinated the gifts, I forbade all gift
bags. Why? Because kids hate gift bags. If the only present you get all year long is
in a gift bag, what a letdown! Especially
if the gift is clothes. The child is
robbed of the ecstasy of ripping open the paper and box. I stopped short of insisting we have
coordinating paper and bows. But I let
it be known what my preference was. I
haven’t been asked to coordinate this since.
Imagine that.
When I shop for gifts, I end up with hives and tears. I want the gifts to be perfect. I worry about size, color, Spiderman vs.
Batman, Hello Kitty vs. Disney Princesses.
I chose something and then put it back.
I second guess and the second guess my second guess. I worry that it’s too much, that it’s not
enough, that I’m not a cheerful enough giver, that the child will be utterly
and completely disappointed and will cry on Christmas morning.
Since last year my church group gave gift cards to a mission
in Washington, I decided to participate in Operation Shoebox as well. Only gifts that fit in a shoebox. Then Samaritan’s Purse will get it to a child
in the third world. Fun and seemingly stress
free.
I decided to prepare two boxes, one for a boy each of my son’s
ages. What could be simpler? I didn’t
take my boys with me to do the shopping because explaining this to Bruce would
be impossible. I can hear the endless
list of questions, “Where’s the third world, why don’t they have food, why
doesn’t Santa just bring them something, why don’t they just move, how do they
find the kids, what type of plane will deliver the presents, will they drop
them from the plane by tiny parachutes?” Explaining to Reed why he couldn’t
keep the gifts would prove equally problematic.
I grew up in the “Band Aid” and “We are the World”
generation. You see, the third world is
hot. It’s populated by starving black
children wearing tatters while standing in line to receive a cup of water and
bowl of rice from UNICEFF. That’s
it. I can’t envisage another
scenario. Although the literature from
Samaritan’s Purse suggests differently – the third world is hot, drought
stricken and run by tyrants who feed on corruption fueled by trafficking
illegal drugs. That’s it!
Shopping at Target, I began to have doubts about my previous
supposition. Perhaps Samaritan’s Purse
knows a thing or two. Cue the panic
attack. I wanted each boy to have a
super hero t-shirt. Boys are taught in
the womb to love Spiderman, etc. But
what if my box when to a colder climate?
What if I should have included a long sleeved over a short sleeved? I knew my boxes would go to brothers (they
didn’t, in fact). I wanted to ensure
that little brother was getting gifts similar enough to big brother’s. Nothing pisses little brothers off quicker
than when big brother gets a present that he wants but isn’t quite old enough
for yet.
I fretted over colored pencils over crayons. I picture the crayons melting in transit
under the heat of the third would sub-Saharan sun.
Toys dealing with war are not permitted. OK, fair enough. But Spiderman and Batman vanquish their share
of bad guys. Captain America’s first
enemy was Hitler after all. Did I have a
Captain American item? What if cartoon
characters are too warlike?
I made it to checkout, shaken, red blotches induced by
stress marked my neck and I had tears in my eyes. The checker remarked what great gifts these
would be but no way all that would fit in two shoe boxes. One hundred and sixty dollars later, I’m at
home packing and repacking the boxes, tears running down my face. Husband looking at me like the fool I
was.
This year will be different – maybe…
The family we adopted with the ladies group has fallen on
hard times. But this is temporary. I have every assurance that this time next
year they will be in a better place. So
I’m confident that my gift probably won’t be the sole gift this child
receives. I’m buying clothing for a 3
year old little girl. I’m going to go to
Kohl’s and go crazy in the pink section and include the gift receipt. I intend on buy all colors girls like – pink and
hot pink, Oh, and sometimes purple.
On Friday, I’m also going to feed the homeless. Our church participates in a great program
called Family Promise. The Cadles will
provide the evening meal on the Friday after thanksgiving to seven children and
adults. Cue the PRESSURE!
First, good Christians from the South can provide some great
food! I’d wager families in this program probably gain weight. I just want my food to measure up!
Secondly, we’re going to give them a fried turkey. I hope it turns out. If you've fried a turkey you know that this can quickly go south.
Thirdly, kids don’t really like Thanksgiving food. I don’t know many who like dressing, mashed
potatoes, and sweet potatoes. I’m
Googling kid friendly recipes for these guys.
I want to give them my best and I hope it is good enough. Here’s to doing it without tears and
hives. Maybe I’ll find the joy this
year.
If I do find joy this year, then I will have more energy to
devote to averting the gaze of the Salvation Army ringers because I have no
more change!